A Visit with the Surgeon

I recently found a lump on my side that has been there for about four or five months. I first went to the family practitoner and she was for sure it was a pulled muscle and gave me pain meds and told me to come back in a month.

Well a month went by and it was time for my annual Ob/Gyn visit with my favorite doctor, Courtney Trylovich... she is so awesome. I went ahead and asked her what she thought about it since she deals somewhat in that area and might know. She said she thought is might be a hernia and suggested I go to a surgeon. She said to get it taken care of soon, cause you don't want to have hernia problems. So as obedient as I am, I made the appointment.

It was today....

The doctor, Dr. Cribbins, first could not find it and I began to think he might think I am crazy. I told him sometimes it sticks out more and sometimes you can barely feel it. He began to press harder in that area and felt the spot. He told me he thought it was a Lipoma. "What's that I asked right away!" He said it was a fatty benign tumor! All I heard was tumor. It was the feeling I had when I was put on bed rest... a flood of emotions and I almost cried today... but caught myself (I did cry when it was the problem with the twins).

I immediately began to ask questions, like is this something I should be scared about and he said no. He told me that most of these are non-cancerous. He said he wanted to do a scan, can't remember if it is a CT scan or a CAT scan to get a better look at the inside of it to make sure this is the actual problem. Then if it is a Lipoma, we will schedule surgery to remove it and then test it! So he left me with that one glimpse of a problem... but assured me it was benign.

So as I left, I made my phone calls and began my drive home when the horrible thoughts began to flood my mind and bounce around in it like a bouncy ball. An old friend who past away from cancer popped in my mind... her little boy was 4 when she was diagnosed and she died when he was 6 from cervical cancer.

I know God is totally in control and I just need to yeild to His grace and love to get me through this ordeal. It is probably nothing! Nothing! Nothing. But let me tell you... having active twin boys, working full time and trying to be the best support to my husband in ministry can all be all consuming at times... and now this!

Well, it helps to journal how I feel and know that God will get me through this one!

***Chrissy***